Inspiration me...Inner power wisdom cards...birds

Master Key 9:2 - They say a bird in the hand is worth two in the bush.  What bird is in your hand? Are you clutching it to death in fear of losing it or are you giving it the gentle support it needs to grow?

It's interesting that I get this card for two reasons.  1.  There is a comical commercial on TV about that one line phrase.  2.  I am doing exactly what the card implies.

I am not just giving gentle support for growth, but am accepting where there is no growth and letting go.  Moving on and embracing that whilst there is breath in me, there is more out there.

I clutch at nothing.  I stand with open arms and open hands allowing, accepting and growing.  I shall not lie, the process is as best painful, at worst numbing, but getting there is rewarding.

Inspiration me...today I will...Inner wisdoms

today I will...(trusting in life) - trust that the events occurring in my life are not random. My experiences aren't mistakes, and the Universe, my Higher Power, and life are not picking on me. I'm going through exactly what I need to go through to learn something valuable--something that will prepare me for the joy and love I'm seeking. ~language of letting go - Melody Beattie

I am a worthwhile Human Being - You are always a valuable worthwhile Human Being - not because anybody else says so, not because you're making lots of money -- but because you decide to know it. ~Dr. Wayne Dyer

It has taken many years to understand the logic behind trusting life.  To know that no matter the horrors, trials and error to get to where I need to be.  A true preparation that can only come from knowledge and experience.  I guess a way to appreciate and not take for granted the treasures that await you.

I see two kinds of people daily, the Divas and the Low Esteemed.  Rarely do I see the in between, the ones that are confident in who they are, the ones that know they are valuable worthwhile Human Beings.  It is so easy for people to be so negative, to point out flaws and to churn the gossip mill.  The true strength in character is when you point out the positive, the characters brilliance and keep from speaking ill.

Because we each should know how much a treasure we are and how to trust life.

'How do you plaaaan life?' from the movie My Life in Ruins.

Most times when people ask how I am doing, I say fine.  But I mean F.I.N.E. (Fucked up. Insecure. Neurotic and Emotional)
BUT....I know I am that much closer to answering fine...as in the word and not the acronym.

Inspiration me.....today I will.....achieving clarity in my relationship

today I will...remember that even the best relationships have low points. If the low point is the norm in my current relationship, I may have to consider if I want it to continue. If the low point is temporary, I will practice understanding. I know that I will achieve clarity and make the right decision.

Sometimes a gypsy with a glass table from a stone that when you look into it, you fall into an abyss of purple wonder, is what you need to realize.......you need to get the F out of some relationships.

A couple of years ago Oprah Winfrey had a segment on Energy Vampires, those that literally suck the energy out of you.  Get them the F out.

The ones that linger only to see what they can get from you.  Get them the F out.

The ones that can't make up their mind where you fall in their lives.  Get them the F out.

The ones that see you as a dollar sign.  Smack the shit out of them, THEN, get them the F out.

The ones that use love, trust and caring.  Get them the F out.

Then - take a moment - look at that cleaned out closet and imagine all the wonderful new people you will have.  Then - achieve clarity and make the right decision; knowing people who don't have your best interest at heart, won't stop you or create such negativity that stops you.

Get them the F out and 'achieve'.

AndMore.....Commuting while nature is angry

I've written many times of the trials and tribulations of my commute.  It just doesn't matter anymore what city, commuting from NJ to NY and vice verse is horrendous since the cut backs, not to mention expensive.

Add to it snow, sleet, 'arctic' freeze, bitter cold and icy dangers to complete the horror show that is commuting.

Arctic freeze - You stand at the bus stop, at least I am in a town these days where there are several buses to NY.  It's just...they don't show up till well in between one another.  By the time a bus gets from downtown to midtown; it is full.  The tunnel on this day was jammed packed.  People just don't stay home in bad weather anymore.  It is frowned upon or worse yet, due to this economy bosses are really letting their hair down and intimidating people into going in.  Or if you are like me, the reality of the pile of work that will wait for you when you return makes you take the risk.

Short bus trip to Port Authority then the subway.  I don't know what was going on but the subway was packed with tourist as if they were given a ticket from the train to their country - express.

I get to my stop and the 10 block walk begins.  It felt as though it took forever, I know the migraine I got that day lasted as long.

Snow - There is so much snow around that it takes more parking spots then cars.  Whenever it is street cleaning day, I must go around looking for parking, it is rare to find parking on a warm spring day, it is near impossible when there is snow all around and no plowing attempts to remove it.

Ice - Yesterday was just an adventure.  Sidewalks frozen, streets frozen, hell even the trees were frozen.  I didn't walk - I slid from block to block.  Low point of the year thus far????  An old lady had to help me - apparently she was able to root herself into the ice much better then me.  Even helping to hoist me up to the bus since the driver was too FUCKING DUMB to lower it (yes, the bus can be lowered).

This weather ages you.  Your bones hurt, actually all of your body hurts.  Your fingers no matter the gloves will hurt.  The getting off of one mode of transportation to another in full winter layers, the people thinking it is an inconvenience only to them and therefore making the commute that much more terrible with their attitude.

Yes...commuting when nature is angry will age you.  It will bitter a slight your joy with snow.  It will make you see people for their nasty selves, it will remind you that Old Man Winter is a cantankerous FUCK with an ax to GRIND and I hope Spring kicks his MOTHERFUCKING ASS!!!!!