being direct – today I will…own my own power and be direct, and I will be clear and honest in my dealings with other people. If I’m comfortable with my own truth, then those around me will be comfortable with me, too. ~Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie
I release all feelings of worry and guilt…throughout life, the two most futile emotions are guilt for what has been done, and worry about what might be done. ~Inner Wisdom cards by Dr. W. Dyer
It makes sense really…be comfortable with who you are…worry and guilt will solve nothing. Yet uncomfortable is what I feel and am filled with worry and guilt. I read the cards, I know the meanings and yet…still…
Sometimes people don’t understand what stepping back and building a wall means; at least for me…it means…
Nothing anyone says is helping
In most cases they are saying things that make me feel worse
I may feel let down by some and don’t want to find out if those that are left will do the same
I may even not have the energy to hear another opinion, advice, criticism…etc.
The wall is metaphorical; it’s an emotional obstacle to keep that which can cause me harm at a time when I can’t or don’t have the strength to protect myself.
Like a castle that needs a wall around it, I layer a brick wall around me. Like the moat that creates further an obstacle, my silence keeps me at bay. When I can deal with some contact, a small secret passage is opened and one may pass through, even then for a small time.
That castle is more like a recovery center. Some may say it is an isolation. But…that is an opinion.
How long does the wall stay up? Who knows? I don’t. For as long as it takes. If you are on the other side, than for whatever reason, I am uncomfortable, or I worry that you may cause me harm and I won’t be able to protect myself. Should I be wrong, trust me, I already feel guilty about it. But the wall, nonetheless, stays up.
Today I will acknowledge that I recover internally, spiritually and emotionally at my pace…with no concern over what someone else may think. ~gracey castro – My ‘language of letting go’.