Inspiration me...Appreciate

It's one of those weeks let alone one of those days where inspiration is needed most....

I appreciate all that I am and all that I have. Stop focusing on what you do not have, and shift  your consciousness to an appreciation for all that you are and all that you do have. ~ Inner Wisdom Cards by Wayne Dyer

Gratitude is the least of the virtues, but ingratitude is the worst of vices. ~Thomas Fuller


Sometimes appreciating is best when you have the least.  You can either feel sorry for  yourself or stand tall, be grateful for life and all you have left and move on.  Let go of the pity party and plan the fiesta!
 

AndMore...Bitch Slapping Festival

People who bite the hand that feeds them usually lick the boot that kicks them. ~Eric Hoffer

That quote just lingers in my mind.  I see a lot of 'biters' day in and day out.  Some are:

nibblers, they nibble away showing that it really doesn't hurt...when in actuality the part is numb.
chewers, these people just stare at you while chewing away at your core (small inner grin intact).
chompers, greedy breed these biters.  They just take a chunk off and always when you are not looking, these people are also runners.
tear apart, these psycho's just grab and tear with a vengeful bite at any one at any time.  They also look regretful once they clean up their faces.
kiss-rippers, these are the charmers, they lean in for a kiss and take a good bite, they also have the gift of making it seem as though it was YOUR fault.

No matter the biter, you the prey must know one thing. BITCH SLAPPING!  Whether it's a verbal 'Yeah Baby, I see the lips form a kiss but I saw the last victim, MOVE ON' or
'Oh man, you got me this time BUT...watch my ASS as I walk out' or
Just a good old fashion actual and physical BITCH SLAP.

The time to be a victim is never!  Pick up your petticoat with one hand and start slapping with the other.  In most cases a verbal will do just fine since biters usually think you will always let them feast.  Arrogant fu_ckers!

And if any of the above does not tell you something then lets try this...the quote...end of quote...
'usually lick the boot that kicks them'  You wanna be a boot licker????

Didn't think so!  Gargle and strengthen the vocals.  Use stress balls and strengthen the hand because a bitch slapping fest is better then a boot licking party of two.

AndMore...American dollar

So....I visit my sister in South Jersey, it was a lovely time.  We just laughed and had a good weekend.  Sunday morning I begin my journey North as I had plans for the day.

I had enough for the first two tolls but only had a $20 bill for the last one and of course no E-Z pass (really have to get one now that I am traveling more again).

I reach the toll and there is only one which has an attendant.  I give her the $20 and a greeting.  I look at her, she looks about 70 with the blackest died hair which made her wrinkles even more profound.  She kept sucking on her teeth the way elderly do with dentures.  She hands me the change with both hands balled up.

I reach out cupping my hands and she dumps $19.00 in quarters and dollar coins.

Me:  'May I please have bills'
Hag: 'It's American money, use it anywhere'
Me: 'I don't have a coin sorter, may I have bills please'
Hag: 'What's wrong? You don't know how to recognize American money?'
Me:  'May I have American bills please'
Hag: 'YOU CAN USE THEM ANYWHERE, IT'S AMERICAN MONEY'
Me: '90% of the stores in America are run by FOREIGNERS, can I have bills please'
Hag: (takes the coins begrudgingly) 'That's what's wrong with the country, no one knows American money'
Me: 'No, what's wrong with the country is that they depleted SSI and now I have deal with pissed off seniors with an ax to grind.

I really believe the top part of her dentures detached, I drove on.

Really?  Really?  The Garden State Parkway????  WTF???? I can't even enjoy a Sunday morning drive.

Inspiration me...when to let go...revoking

'You don't have to make a decision today' ~ (Catherine) Biting Back by Claudia Cunningham

'.....instead of using the whip on myself for not being able to make my decision on a dime, I tried to relax and pay attention to what was happening in my everyday life.' ~ Biting Back Claudia Cunningham

'If you are distressed by anything external, the pain is not due to the thing itself, but to your estimate of it; and this you have the power to revoke at any moment.' ~-Marcus Aurelius Antoninus

How many years does it take to finally say enough!  To say, I will not let you take advantage! To say, I don't want this anymore!

It takes as many as it will for your heart and mind to agree.  Sad but true.

It always leads me back to my cousin and our trip several years ago to Rhode Island.  Where she explained the Point of no Return and how I mastered that approach.  To take and take until something inside shuts down, I walk away and that is that.  Sometimes when I can't either make a decision or my heart is to wrapped up to allow me to make a decision, this is the only route I know.  Most times, it just happens and it is always unplanned.  In the back of my mind I am preparing myself on how to tell the someone or someones - ENOUGH!, yet I don't and something inside just......stops.....

It was interesting to see something similar in this book. -  'In fact, once we've come that far, I'm not even sure there's any turning back----and that's also a good thing.' Biting Back by Claudia Cunningham

I have since reading this book, slayed some vampires, pushed some back, drawn lines and boundaries for others.  Yet...there are 3 that remain.  I can't decide and at least in one case the inevitable holds true, that vampire will need serious slaying.  Thus far, I regain my energy.  And.....you CAN regain your energy.

Thus far, I see clearer, it is happiness, sadness, preparing and confusion, but... nonetheless clearer.

I find myself in situations that are either the same or worse, but I see them as the situations that they are and arm myself.  Now that...is...progress.

UPDATE

Watcher's Notes will be back shortly.....with a whole new frame of mind!!!!!!

HIATUS

Well folks, it's that time of year when I go into writing hiatus.  See you in a few months.

For inspirational material I shall continue with the writings of the below authors, I hope you will too:

Biting Back by Claudia Cunningham
Inner Power Wisdom by Dr. Antonia M.
The language of letting go by Melody Beattie
and the many works of Dr. Dyer.

This site as well as Facebook will be deactivated.

Happy Spring Folks!

~gracey

Inspiration me...today i will.....getting calm

today I will stop searching for happiness outside of myself.  If I'm in a frenzied state, I'll get calm, get back on track, and remember that the key to happiness is inside me.  Often, after I've become peaceful and accepting, what I want comes to me with ease. ~Language of letting go by Melody Beattie

'A lot changes when you stop medicating your pain in the same old way you always have.' ~ Biting Back by Claudia Cunningham

'thoughts can be felt' Energy - although invisible to the naked eye, energy may be perceived and felt. ~ 365 ways to live the law of attraction by Meera Lester

It's amazing, I started a journey a over year ago to find out why the people around me are the way they are.  Why I attract the same behavior.  The lesson so far has been that I can not learn their behavior because it is not consistent or it is hidden behind a facade.  What I have learned instead is me.  The key word is attract.

When I feel pain or troubled it is not a normal reaction to me to speak of it.  Rather...I retreat, allow my own thoughts to unfold or write.  In the past few years I have tried the talk, vent, speak until blue in the face method and still felt the same.  Talking does not help me.  Thinking does.  I am a fairly intelligent woman that has survived many of life's obstacles, not by talking....but....by thinking, rethinking, accepting, letting go and in most cases just praying and believing in that prayer.

Full circle I have come.  I know this place now.  I know me.  Not the me others try to make - the real me.  Strong and decisive.  A lot does change when you stop reacting the same.  A lot changes more when  you remove anger and resentment.

Someone once asked me how I knew the feelings or lack of from another.  That answer is simple, if you take ego out of the equation, take paranoia out as well, if you remove all the obstacles you - yourself place; your instincts are like a beacon.  You will sense, see and know what another is feeling; more so if  you have witnessed a variation of their emotions before.  Knowing is not enough...what you do with that knowledge is the test of time. 

Do you accept the negativity, anger or abuse?  Do you make excuses for anothers actions?  Do you allow yourself to be a dormat?  Do you become someone else's joy for the scraps they give in return?  Or...do you see the reality and make no fantasy of it.  Do you take a stand for yourself?  Do you even realize that only you can make you happy?  I realize.  I realize and now work at making it so.

The key to happiness 'is' inside of me.  Where is yours?

GREAT BOOK

Just finished Palaces & Calluses book by Rebecca Woodhead, great read!

Can't wait for the rest of the Chronicles to come out on this gem.  Download a copy: 

http://www.rebeccawoodhead.com/p/palaces-and-calluses.html

The Watcher sees......

The Watcher sees and writes.....
She walks along with an air of privilege cutting lines while talking on the cell phone.  Hopping on the first cab that pulls over.  The quick and arrogant act causes a line of people to go through shock than anger.

He listens in on the conversation, then jumps right in with negativity.  Has a crack or two usually out of spite.  Yet...a real whiner if the tables are turned.

He says one thing, does another.  He complains of the lack of trust, yet thinks his repeating is not known.  The innocent look fooling no one.

She says one thing and always means another.  She gets upset when people don't understand her.

They sit in a group, always the same people.  Always the same conversation.  They fester about the world and how unfriendly it is.  A person greets them...........they snicker.

She washes clothes.  She uses several machines.  He walks by and snidely comments on how much money she must be spending on all those loads.  She says hello and how are you.  He grumbles and leaves.

I heard someone tell another 'What a miserable world we live in'.  I hear one tell another 'Life is so hard'.  I shake my head at it all.

The Watcher observes....
Life is not hard.  It just is.  People make it hard.
The world is not miserable, the world just is.  People make it miserable.

To feel as though your very presence is a heralding is something that I am sure your maker and you will discuss one day.  Until then...it would be much nicer if people just remembered we share this world.

How many times do you cut a line?  That rush in the market, a sneaky stealth?  I have been with people that really make a to do about it.  If you are in that much of a rush, LEAVE EARLIER.

Are you the conversation stalker?  Do you listen in then think you have the right to comment, judge or criticize over what you bent over backwards to hear?

Are you so confused that you say one thing and do another?  That nerve racking a$$ that then gets miffed when someone gets upset about it?  Be consistent or at least honest.

Do you say things you don't mean?  Just agree with everything?  Try having an opinion of your own.  No one really appreciates a parrot.  It's like talking to the mirror.  It's also like saying one thing and doing another.

Are you in a click?  Every day with the same people?  Having the same conversations.....about other people?  That has to be miserable.  How can you know so much (I say that with sarcasm) if you don't branch out?  That person to your left and right can't know more if they are always with you and not branching out themselves.

Are you getting older and grumpier?  You can't say anything nice so you pose a question indicating a complaint or annoyance?  Get over it.  Yes, there are younger people out there, yes, they can be annoying, yes you were once them too.

Are you?  Do you?  How many times?....  be a watcher.  Watch what you may be like and see if you can make a difference and not just complain about it.

Inspiration me...dreary day; double dip

What a dreary day.  So much so that I needed to pull two cards for a pick me up.

Let intuition and inner wisdom shine through, and you will not have to rely upon the glitter of gold to light your way.  ~Master Key 2:4 Inner Power Wisdom by Dr. Antonia M.

To find love, demonstrate it. Be the love of your own life, and you will never want for companionship.  ~Master Key 30:3 Inner Power Wisdom by Dr. Antonia M.

Intuition - I have spoken and written much of it.  An international pen-pal and I have been on months long written conversation of it.

'I have a feeling.'  'I had a vision.'  'I had this dream.'  When you don't listen to your intuition it will try to get through one way or another until you either pay attention or completely ignore and get caught unaware.

Scientifically the research is still that there are 4 types of intuition:

1. Clairvoyant - ability to 'see'
2. Clairaudient - ability to 'hear'
3. Clairkinetic - ability to 'feel'
4. Clairsentient - ability to 'know'

It still boils down to one thing.  Are you watching, listening, sensing or thinking?  It's not a 'gift'.  We all have it.  It's just that some of us pay closer attention, are more in-tuned or have less chaos in our minds.

The gift is not having intuition, it is in paying attention to it.

Loving  yourself takes knowing and accepting yourself.  In taking the good and improving the bad and saying 'what the heck' to all else.  When you get to this point of self knowing, self love, your intuition is like your own crystal ball.

Inspire to love yourself in a healthy manner.  Inspire to fine tune your intuition.

Inspiration me...detachment

'Today I will commit myself to detachment. I will allow myself and those around me the freedom to be as they are'. ~The seven spiritual laws of success by Deepak Chopra

'The fact that we continue to be in relationship with and feed partners, friends, employers, neighbors, and beliefs that are vampires to us.....' Biting Back by Claudia Cunningham

'Grace, explain the Serenity prayer, I don't think people 'really' understand it completely'. ~B. R. Soto

1. God grant me the serenity
2. to accept the things I cannot change;
3. courage to change the things I can;
4. and wisdom to know the difference.

I can't answer for what the author meant when the above Serenity prayer was written.  I can say what I get out of it.

1.  I haven't the strength, will or reality to accept the inner peace required for #2.
2. Don't we just want to change the world?  The reality is, one person, one voice can't.  We also can't change people, we can't 'make' them into anyone else but who they want to be.  Accepting that fact means letting go of a tremendous amount of ego and arrogance.
3. Now...the things we can change...there's where our energy would benefit most.  Imagine changing yourself and how you think.  For example, if a certain type of energy vampire constantly appears in your life.  Rather than thinking with ego and arrogance that you can change those vampires, how about finding out what it is about you that entices them?  Are you allowing the feeding?  Are you allowing certain actions that you are truly not comfortable with making the excuse that they will eventually change?  Imagine just changing that outlook alone, how much of the 'things you can't control' will not be an issue.
4. Don't I wish I had the consistent wisdom to know the difference.  But...as I study, as I take my inner journeys, as I reflect in constructive earnest......I gather the wisdom to know the difference.

Deepak says it with a certainty that is clear. 'I will allow myself', there it is!  Simple.  It starts with YOU!

By definition serenity means - "The state of being calm, peaceful, and untroubled"* - that's where it starts.  Stop the chaos, the festering, the over thinking, the controlling what can not and should not be controlled.  Meditate.  Be...calm...peaceful...untroubled...SERENE.

*dictionary.com

The watcher....inspiration squirrel

5th Avenue and many people walk about in a rush, blindly aiming for one another than getting upset that the sidewalk is not clear.  A mere child holding her father's hand......stops....she looks around than up at her father 'where is everybody going'?   I just had to laugh.

She says to him 'I've had it.  They are ALL evil.  I hate that place.'  He says 'But...we need to pay the bills, hang in there.'  She sulks.

The three sit at the table, wine glasses in hand....one is angry at her husband, the other at her boss and the third at herself.  I just went in to grab a menu when I heard.....'Life sucks!' and all agreed.

I pass Madison Ave and a woman in extremely high heeled shoes is yelling and cussing at another woman with even higher heels. 'Can't you watch where you are going?'.....the other 'Can't you?', more nonsense back and forth.

I stop and stared but I was looking right through them.

I reached Central Park and sat for a bit.  I had walked several blocks from the East Side.  I grab the little book in my bag and read a page or two.  I looked up to notice a squirrel.  The first I have seen in NYC in the 3 yrs I work here.  It is just leaning back on a tree trunk, watching the people walk by.  Peddlars begging, tourists lost, angry people screeching, horns blowing........  Once or twice the squirrel would nibble on something.  At one point we just stared at each other.  It left...occassionally looking back at the street side while going deeper into the park.

He was probably as disgusted as I was.

Back to the book -' Kindness begets kindness. Thinking good thoughts instead of dark or evil ones is a way of doing good.  When you silently bless others, that is a good thing and good is attracted back into your life.' ~365 Ways to live the law of attraction by Meera Lester

There it is in a nutshell.  We can't even have good thoughts so how can we be good to one another.  Hatred, anger, insecurity, selfishness, lies...the list goes on.  All the emotions and characteristics that keep one from succeeding in life.

A friend once told me 'Why expect good from people and get disappointment'.  Another constantly has bitter remarks on anything concerning men.  And.....yet another about women.  The friend that awaited a long time to have kids....complaining about having kids.  I shake my head at it all.

The squirrel had the right idea.  Eat, watch and leave.  Go find another place, less ----chaotic.

If you can't remove chaos - by all means remove yourself from it.  Evil begets evil.  Anger begets anger......unless you can change it (good luck) or remove yourself from it.  So, I walk on and reach an avenue that is less chaotic...only all avenue at this point have chaos.  What then?

The serenity program says it all....

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Accept what you can not change.  Just remember you 'can' change yourself.  Courage your way to that change for the better.  Have the wisdom to know how, when and why.