Inspiration me....I am my Zodiac

Most people think they know me.  I've yet met someone that really does.  I know none understand me.  Most don't know that I love astrology.  I have studied it for many years taking refresher courses every few years.  I am fascinated with how the stars don't lie, don't change and can tell me of someone as if I were gazing into their soul.

I am a Libra.  (the seventh sign of the zodiac, represented by a pair of scales and lasting from approximately September 23 to October 22. Libra is classified as an air sign and its ruling planet is Venus)  Diplomatic and urbane, Romantic and charming, Easygoing and sociable, Idealistic and peaceable like the scales Libra's are also the complete opposite of that description.

Most don't know that:
When I love - I love with all my heart
When I despise - I despise with all my heart

I was speaking with a friend who has known my family for many years.  We spoke of the time when I was very religious.  Born again Christian and always in fear.  I would worry and weep for family and friends because they were going to hell for not believing what I was taught to believe.  My mother worried even more for me through those years.  When my son was born, I nursed him in the hospital while watching the news of our war with Kuwait.  I remember thinking 'Lord, what have I done?  How could I bring a child into 'this' world?'  I believed with all my heart.  But......I am my Zodiac.....I questioned all the time.

I questioned about all that religion taught.  I am my Zodiac.  When I gave up religion I gave it up with all my heart.  Yet.....I was closer to God.  What failed in religion succeeded in Spirituality.

I have had friendships that soared.  I am my Zodiac, when they failed, they crashed and burned.

I have spent decades trying to keep a family together.  I am my Zodiac, when the scale kept tipping I accepted what could not be.

I seek balance all the time.  I am my Zodiac.  I seek peace and try to with a vengeance but when peace I can not find I wear my suit of war just as comfortably.  I am most truly my Zodiac.

Most don't know I have the most intense curious nature.  I could put a cat to shame.  I am my Zodiac, when curiosity gets the best of me I will with as much intensity shut down, steer away and not look back.

Most people don't know that I despise the word maybe.  Yes or No, it's just that simple.  The scale only has two for balance.  I despise bullies and being pressured.  I am my Zodiac, I will understand there is no balance in that and will fight it.

Most people don't take the time to know that when I inspire myself I am my Zodiac, I inspired because I lacked it.  The stars are loyal.  The same friendship I had with them decades ago I have with them today.

I won't talk about politics or several other topics.  I am most passionate about them however, I am my Zodiac, I am diplomatic and when the scales tip, I am tactless.

Most don't know that I weep as much as I laugh.  I am my Zodiac, I will find a way to balance it out.

That is me...I am my Zodiac...a daily attempt to balance the scales.